The past few days I cleaned out my office. From the dozens of files to the notorious unreached paper groups, from equipment to small stuff. What first looked like a boring task to do turned into a spiritual exercise, or more specific: a spiritual cleansing. Wading through page after page of ministry, projects, correspondence, more ministry, more projects, more correspondence, God confronted me with 20 years of well-meant but also quite ambitious human striving and perfectionism. Of course it wasn't all bad and I learned a lot, but if 10% of all this was truly 'Christ in me' (or Spirit-led) I would be happy. Yes, of course the context of a church system, old-paradigm ministry and Western society don't really help either, but hey - I want to live as a son of God, not a worker for God. I ended up driving seven large boxes of paperwork to the container, and already feel much lighter. I won't need any of this in the next phase.